I WILL PREVIVE [A Side Serve Of Stones] diary extract, 9 August 2017

N-N-NINETIES OUTRO series (2017)

“If you make sure you’re connected, the writing’s on the wall but if your mind’s neglected, stumble you might fall. ~ Stereo MC’s

Tomorrow is my “Surgiversary”. Yes! 10 August 2016 kicked off a year of 5 times surgery-recovery, beginning with a procedure called nipple delay. Is it so hard to believe? No, not really. The feelings say that I’ve been writing on the wall for a very long time. The numbers say that it’s been 365 days.

Lately, I’ve being trying to make friends with those numbers rather than believing they are conspiring against me. But I still can’t help but wonder how it is that my MRI results are due tomorrow on my Surgiversary, rather than on any other date. As Samantha Jones said in a SATC re-run I watched recently, “If you listen to all the little voices in your head you’ll go crazy”. Well, she was right; I definitely have become so cray-cray.

Something I used to say a lot when I lived in England was, “WHAT ARE THE CHANCES???!!!” I used to hear people say it all the time. And I also heard people say that *you make your own luck* when it comes to probabilities and statistics. So to what extent do we have a say in our final destination? Is it simple risk management or is there a bigger force at play in the Universe?…”


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August 9, 2017